we are young and stupid and raised by wolves
(this is not real life. these are not pictures of me. I am 25 years old and a woman and passionate about politics and fanfiction and, as far as you are concerned, I only exist online.)
— mimblexwimble tags (I am still confused about getting sources to show: yes, this is a reblog of my own Ask.)
It’s new. Not sure what, if anything, I’ll do with it, but I’d been browsing around getting frustrated at being able to join conversations only through the occasional anonymous Ask. Anyway, hi!
This season is so strange. There are so many consent issues everywhere, and they are so tangled with things that have been fundamental to the show for a long time, and I’m very unsure how much is visible to the writers and where they are ultimately going to come down on the issues. In a way it almost doesn’t matter, because it’s still going to be a fascinating, disturbing text, but in another way it matters a lot /is vague and tangled up. Just enjoying the show and fandom has certainly become an experience somewhere between complicated and unobtainable.
yeah that last line.
Every night, I ask myself if I have the emotional energy to start watching SPN again, and the answer is no.
PRAYER CIRCLE FOR GADREEL TO STAY SAFE IN TONIGHT’S EPISODE AND Y’KNOW SOME REDEMPTION MIGHT BE NICE AS WELL
I find him interesting. I’d like to have more story for him, and I’d like it to be morally complex. I just worry that any redemption for Gadreel may, as written, come at the expense of the legitimacy of Sam’s issues with the noncon possession. OTOH, I also think it’s important to acknowledge that had ”Ezekiel” l been exactly who he said he was, had Kevin never died, the violation of Sam would still have been horrific. So in that sense I’d like to see them not resting their case on “bad angel possessed Sam” but on “angel possessed Sam without his knowledge or legitimate consent and exerted control of his mind, body, and memory with Dean’s authorization and cooperation.” Dean’s problem wasn’t trusting the wrong angel, it was agreeing to and collaborating in a wrong action.
It does worry me that Thompson sentimentalized and soft-pedaled the knowledge of Sam’s headspace Meg got from that time she possessed him and used his body to murder an innocent hunter, shoot Dean, and sexually menace Jo. If we get a moment where Gadreel ~understands~ Sam and it isn’t made clear that it’s SUPER DARK AND CREEPY AS FUCKING HELL that he’s using knowledge he took nonconsensually from Sam’s brain, I will probably throw things.
"It does worry me that Thompson sentimentalized and soft-pedaled the knowledge of Sam’s headspace Meg got from that time she possessed him and used his body to murder an innocent hunter, shoot Dean, and sexually menace Jo. "
UGH YES THIS EXACTLY
The writers were trying so hard to make Meg sympathetic in the last few seasons, and I could never forget what she did to Sam, Dean, and Jo.
- 26:Have you ever had a dream about Supernatural/the characters/the actors? If so, can you describe what you remember?
I have a tendency to have dreams in which I meet Osric Chau. In one, he assured me that the cosmic consequences of resurrections were going to be a major theme of the show. In another I just met him at a bar. And I once had a dream in which many of the disasters of the later seasons of the show were somehow attributed to Sam not sleeping with inexplicably!Vulcan!Cas when he went into Pon Farr. Most peculiar of all, the dream in which I was a high school buddy of Sam’s and Sam’s mother was alive and well and in the arts, and Sam lived in a lovely house where we got to hang out, except he was a klutz and kept breaking his mother’s artworks. Then Dean gave Sam a bicycle and we went for a ride by the river and met Putin and accused him of murdering someone. I DON’T KNOW MY BRAIN IS A STRANGE PLACE SOMETIMES.
- 32:What’s an unpopular opinion or headcanon you have?
I like Amelia and Sam’s relationship with her, though I thought the Don plot was overly convenient and the writing went downhill in the last couple of Sam and Amelia episodes.
- 44:Have you ever cried over a non-OTP ship from the show?
Cried, no, but I found the Megstiel moment in Goodbye, Stranger moving, and that despite having some strong reservations about the characterization of later-season Meg.